Waiting for...

What am i waiting for ...something amazing or exciting..to laugh or to cry..to say hello o goodbye..cali looks good but no dough..I'm in Syracuse sick of the snow..daycare aha no..I'm helping my mom that's all i know. What about the dreams i had for life? Or doing what i enjoy for a career? Does all this really matter success in finding a career? I was a day dreamer that's all i did. I daydreamed myself to bed. It's so hard now to grasp reality. I was living in the day dream, sort of, kinda, well not really.. To go on and on with the same vision to destroy it, is self destruction. I pick up the blunt and light it. then another one, man its done. To keep wanting on and on...