Anthem of Independence

Yea this is the anthem of independence, no longer do I have to be in this, Lies and situations, It was a thought I felt I could runaway with/ Past drama and confrontations, she was queen and i was the subject.

Before i got in this process, of letting go, no means of access, I use to love talking about you, I wanted you apart of me, I'm telling you, nothing that you could imagine or ever see, Oh yea it gets deep, I remember loving you, watching you love someone else, the attention I was craving for, I surrendered myself. Still holding on dreaming, thinking of ways plotting, scheming. Thoughts of at least talking to you, Now I'm just so sick of you, being on my mind, like a new torture for this time

I finally forgave myself so now I can climb up and out of this hell. All I have to do is choose to get over this, mission with no award, pleasure made-up, man u never gave a fuck.  I wanted your last name, and first you were my every word. Cause all i hear is "Don't fucking touch me, stop looking at me that way I'm not attracted to you in that kinda way". Once again denied, sad to say i was stuck those eyes gleamed like galaxies,  I wanted you to spend your life with me.

Silly

Yea I'm silly, I guess cause what I don't want to sell my pussy, or be in a nigga face true story. You call me a sucka, when u do all the sucking, and fucking  ill you nasty ( Lil- Wayne voice) I rather be a nerd then come off trashy. They all talk about you behind ya back, your sister, bitches you with, "It's easy to hit dat". Just call 475...yea you know the number. See i wouldn't put you shit on blast, even though you be actin whack. Now I'm sitting typing, laughing, smiling, good choice i made, i don't work hard and under payed. Like i said i did everything, only because of your sister. It's over now

Wrote a song about you..

Like who doesn't write a song about someone or something that has had a great impact on their emotions. 
Everything so blurry, like swimming down in the ocean,
I heard you leaving in March I hope It's not a broken
promise. I stay in the house cause of you like I'm
Amish. It's going to be great without you around
I can cruise the city without seeing your smile
Hace frio mami, you so cold;
your the coldest person I
ever known.
You heart
keeps
the
Arctic
frozen
over

Deuces

Waiting for...

What am i waiting for ...something amazing or exciting..to laugh or to cry..to say hello o goodbye..cali looks good but no dough..I'm in Syracuse sick of the snow..daycare aha no..I'm helping my mom that's all i know. What about the dreams i had for life? Or doing what i enjoy for a career? Does all this really matter success in finding a career? I was a day dreamer that's all i did. I daydreamed myself to bed. It's so hard now to grasp reality. I was living in the day dream, sort of, kinda, well not really.. To go on and on with the same vision to destroy it, is self destruction. I pick up the blunt and light it. then another one, man its done. To keep wanting on and on...

Changes

No one likes it but it is so needed. To grow, move on, start new. Like taking yourself out of Egypt and heading to Peru. I'm not sure why I'm upset, could it be you use me ridiculously. Without a conscious you continued to abuse me. I refuse to stay in this mind set, I don't want to regret the good times we had, was the times good, did you have a blast..lol? Change is here i can't stay in the past.  

How does obsession begin?

When do you stop? How does it begin? How does it keep going? Ten yrs that's a long time to wait for someone who will never come around..reality drops stomps you in the ground..tell me when does it end..